Yesterday was Thanksgiving and tomorrow I will renew my quest to pass the Colorado bar exam. The Bar application will go in the mail, insured and confirmation of receipt requested. My $575.00 check will be in that envelope, as will my hopes of giving my family decent Christmas gifts this year.
I graduated from law school in 2004, and I still haven't passed the Colorado bar exam. I felt like a total failure after my first couple attempts. This most recent attempt -- July 2006 -- and failure was more Zen-like; I didn't feel anything when my Dad came to my office to drop the word. He was a hawk on the Colorado Supreme Court website, refreshing the page that would show a list of "successful applicants" every half hour for a few days before the results were set to be released. I forgot when the results were supposed to come out. I didn't plan to look because I knew someone else would be looking for me: my parents...my law buddy who passed her first try without more than a few days studying effort...the District Attorney's office, who was poised to make me a Baby DA at the first sign that I had slayed my dragon.
And they all were looking, so the word spread fast that the former valedictorian and high LSAT scorer was still a loser. I call it being a warrior. I'm learning a thousand life lessons in the span of 2 years here. Before this I had led a sheltered little bubbly life, and now I'm hardened, pressing ahead the only way I know how.
I've read a lot of fantastic bar exam blogs lately, most of them ending with a sharp, celebratory "I Passed" and a crooked smiley face :). I want this to becoming one of those blogs, and if all goes well over the course of this trek, my last entry will be perfectly abrupt and this pathetic saga will end with flowey strings and french horns or a round of "kumbaya."
Feel free to join me.
